Today, I embark on a daunting journey—the creation of AJOTAS' WONDERLAND BLOG. As these words fill my blank digital canvas, the commitment materializes. I can't believe I'm really doing this; the nerves just hit.
[I take five deep breaths all the way to my core and, without further ado, I begin.]
My magical mind map notebook: Ajotas Book of Spells.
The journey started in 2019 with my first sketchbook—Book of Spells. After a couple of years of therapy and delving into the intricacies of the human brain, particularly its neuroplasticity, and our ability to rewire thought patterns through language and mindset. I comprehended the power of symbols and words as tools to craft our own stories, rewrite our pasts, and design our futures. Essentially, we are alchemists capable of turning pain into magic.
I am currently on the fifth volume of my magic book, it transcends the label of a mere diary; it's a mind map, a personalized guide. The transformative power lies in the faith and intention infused into the process, where every stroke and word have the potential to manifest. I believe and use in my daily vocabulary the words that I constantly write and re-read on the pages of my Spell book, I act as the woman and girl in my sketches; I open my eyes, heart, and mind to their manifestations, without adhering to a particular form of them-- they DO come true in the most magical ways, after much repetition, it just suddenly clicks.
Within the pages of this book, I have embarked on a journey of rewriting my history through dialogues with my inner child, becoming different animals and mystical creatures that she meets along the way. These creatures teach her lessons but also guide and protect her, transforming tales of fear and victimization into enchanting narratives of magic. The live creatures go from trees, flowers, mermaids, dragons, you name it – my imagination is endless. The exploration involves further uncovering these drawn and written symbols in nature and in my surroundings.
For example, when I go to a lake house, I sit quietly by myself and see the reflections of the sun sparkles in the water, the ripples, the movement, and I begin to hear them, the mermaids, I see their light, it’s a frequency in the water. I try to sit in silence and remind myself of the messages they once told me on my notebook, or the new messages appearing to be understood and written. If this exercise seems too farfetched for you, just try it with flowers. Use flowers as a reminder of the inherent beauty of life. I know everyone likes flowers; this exercise goes beyond pretty flowers in a vase. Really notice them, their unique colors, and fragrances, see how they are alive and rich with light, tell them how beautiful they are, use them as reminders of your own beauty. Whenever you see a flower, remind yourself that you too have that light and beauty. Further along the road, each flower can have different symbolic meanings for you, different reminders of aspects of beauty within and without.
Essentially that is what I do, I imbue different symbols with meaning, that I see everywhere around me, creating spells—reminders in nature and city life of the values and belief systems that I am creating for myself. These symbols end up forming mind map to navigate life's challenges by infusing joy into the journey, making life fun. This worldview, though requiring consistent practice and dedication for mastery, has empowered me to seamlessly transition between what I term “matrix Ajotas” ie“real life Ajotas” and my Wonderland Ajotas. Or better yet, I can eliminate the veil separating the two, in a matter of seconds. The notebook is a guide to recognize that life is inherently magical, a written personal testament to the beauty that forms part of each facet of existence
Understand that I haven’t always viewed life this way, a few years ago, I identified as an atheist, I barely even believed in myself. I have trained my eye to see mermaids in a plain lake, and perceive fairies where others might miss the light. Cultivating the ability to feel each moment and embrace nature's wonders by channeling my inner child is a conscious choice, rendering my life extremely rewarding. Today, I'm immersed in a world of magic and wonder, transformed by a magical notebook of spells – there is not one sunset that goes unnoticed- a change in mindset and attitude. You too have the key to this wonderland within you. Open the door, open your eye and heart, start the journey with me and have faith in your magical powers. Maybe you'll begin seeing beyond the matrix's veil, noticing the wonders of our world, and making life fun and beautiful.
“ open the door, open your eye and heart, start the journey within you” ❤️